Don’t worry, it’s written above your grade level. Part of the reason the CIA taught me how to employ dazzle camouflage is to make sure I don’t accidentally wake up children to the occult before they’re ready, cuz if you reflexively judge a book by, not even the cover, you just heard some shit from the author deliberately marketing his educational work to the people most in need of help, then you’re not a potential reader. You’re an animal.
Now go be butthurt cuz I know you can’t help it, being reflexively dependent on your emotional impulses and likely held up by a normative ethos complex with your chosen figurehead idols.
99% chance you refuse to reply or shoot out what you think is a dagger in my heart to then ignore any replies from me after that point. But maybe you’re different. Unlikely; statistically speaking, you’re a statistic, and from experience I can say I’ve had this conversation multiple times now!


Yes, cocaine makes me jittery. I don’t like it. Now, Adderall and methamphetamine both work differently than cocaine (preventing reuptake of dopamine vs flooding dopamine), which both make me “feel” normal (no euphoria) but I can sit still for 48 hours straight, writing the whole time, mind being able to hold a stack of three paragraphs rather than three sentences of what I’m about to write.
But, that also led to major depression and not being able to write more than three paragraphs when sober, so I quit with my life partner’s help and now I’m just your average run-of-the-mill schizoaffective juggler, and you see how my authentic emanations are innately superior to what most people do with their lives. Ah, I shouldn’t punch down. After all, I couldn’t work at Walmart for twenty years. I’d kill myself!